As many of you are aware I have been very quiet for the past few months with no updates on social media, no shows, literally just nothing at all. Now I feel like it is the right time and that I am ready to give an answer to where I have been and why I have been quiet. I want to open up and be completely honest with you all . During my time away from the Benasurus Rex project I have been working on other things and dealing with things in my personal life. One of these things is depression. I have been suffering with depression for quite a while now and it is only recently it has come back bigger and stronger then before. I dont like talking about it to anyone and very few people are aware of my issues with depression. That is why I am coming out now to admit my issues with depression and no one should have to suffer alone. I have self harmed and I have tried ending my own life in the past and recently I have thought about ending it all, but then I think, I have an amazing family and amazing friends who support me and help me and this stops me from doing something stupid.  If you are suffering please talk to someone, if its a friend, family member or complete stranger please just speak to someone about it because it can help even though it is hard things will get better. I understand and I am here for anyone reading this post, fuck fake friends and fuck haters, fuck it il be your friend, just get rid of all the negative people in your life as hard as it may be believe me it will help you to get rid of these people, I recently got rid of someone and as much as it hurts me to a=say goodbye I am glad I have as that person is one massive CUNT who made me feel like shit.

 

So that is one of the reasons I have been taking a break, another is due to me being busy with other things in my life and trying new adventures. Besides depression the other reason I have gone quiet is because the music doesn't feel the same to me anymore.  I love music and I love what I do but lately It just has not felt the same like something has changed. My mixing skills have got bad and I just dont feel that sense of fun while mixing anymore and it feels more like a job which it should not. That is why I have took a break to see how I feel If I come back in the future and to see if my opinion has changed. I am not saying this is the end of Benasurus Rex I am just saying this is the end for now and who knows when I may be back, most likely when you least expect it. Once again I thank every single one of you for your support over the last 4 years and love every single one of you. And if you are suffering with depression or anything else please speak to someone or even message me because I want to help! Nobody should have to suffer alone and I am very lucky to have such great friends by my side to listen to my shit and help me no matter how annoying I can be. Thank You for your understanding -

Yours Always - Ben x